I can’t believe this week’s my third week in school! And even more than that, I can’t believe how much I’m enjoying myself. A long time ago I made a promise to myself that if I ever studied anything again (after my degree), it would be something that I loved. I’m as pleased as a peach that I’m keeping that promise to myself.
It’s not that I hated engineering. Nope, no regrets about that at all. It’s just that doing this diploma to teach English really resonates with where I am in my life right now. I’d say the experience of studying engineering versus language is like the difference between learning to drive a manual car and an automatic car. While competent in both, one required much more aptitude than I was wired for compared to the other.
Initially, I was quite reluctant to tell people what I was going to study. I imagined their reactions to being something like “what a waste of all those years in engineering” or worse, “typical of women, chicken out from the corporate world as soon as they pop a couple of babies out.”. So I tested the waters by telling my very close friends first. By default, they have to say nice things to me, right? But what I wasn’t expecting at all was the outpouring of validation from them. The consensus was, it’s so you! And I felt even more reassured when my lecturer kept saying my previous education and working experience is a huge added advantage, not a handicap.
Now, when someone asks me what I’m doing, I straighten my shoulders and tell them I’m studying. Like the other day when I was getting my car tires aligned, a friendly uncle was making small talk with me and inevitably asked if I was working. When I said, no, studying, he raised his eyebrows and gave me a skeptical once over. Heh.
So will I end up being an English teacher? Have I completely given up on the corporate world? I have no idea. We’ll see how things pan out when I settle in Bintulu. But I had an epiphany at the start of this journey. Life is not static! Don’t like something? Then change it. Cannot? Maybe it’s time to walk away. Want something? Work your ass off for it. Love it? Great! Enjoy it. The important thing to remember is, we are not trees stuck in the ground forever and ever. As Heraclitus, a Greek philosopher said, change is the only constant in life. (Don’t I sound all smarty-pantsy and English teacher-y already? Hehe!)